做梦梦见了佛。I dreamed of the Buddha.

我好久没在这个博客上写东西了。今天我想给你讲一个故事。二零二一年三月三十号，我做了个梦，我梦见了佛。那天晚上我做梦，我和妈回到中国 🇨🇳 旅游了。我们来到了一座山，山顶有座庙 ☯️。我们爬了很多楼梯才爬到了这座庙。我妈手机响了，她叫我一个人先进去拜佛，她先接个电话。我就一个人进去了。我看到了一个很大的佛像，还有很多和尚和尼姑在念经。我跪了下来开始求菩萨帮我把视力治好，帮我不要感觉这么难过了。我正在拜佛的时候，那个佛像一下子从打坐的姿势站了起来，化成了一位和尚，走了过来。我和庙里和尚和尼姑都吓了一跳，都看着现在化成和尚的菩萨，慢慢的往我跪着的地方走了过来。我站了起来，菩萨把一个手放在我的肩膀上，让后对我说，“别吃肉了，别杀生了，吃素吧。” 我吓了一跳，吓醒了。那次梦做完了，除了几次不小心吃了点荤，我一直都是吃素的了。

I haven't wrote on this blog in a long time. Today, I want to tell you a story. On 30 March 2021, I had a dream, I dreamed of the Buddha. My mom and I returned to China 🇨🇳 for travels. We arrived at a mountain, at the peak is a Buddhist monastery ☯️. We climbed a lot of stairs to reach the monastery. My mom's phone ran, and she told me to go in first to pray, she has to answer a call first. I went in myself. I saw a giant Buddha statue, and there were quite a few monks and nuns inside reading the sacred scriptures. I kneeled down and started praying, asking the Buddha to help fix my vision, and to help me not feel so horrible all the time. As I was praying, the Buddha statue which was in a meditative pose, suddenly stood up, proceeded to transform into a monk, and started walking towards me. The monks and nuns in the monastery along with me became quite shocked as we watched the now transformed "Buddha monk" slowly walk towards me. I stood up, the Buddha put one hand on my shoulder, and said to me, "Stop eating meat, stop killing animals, and become a vegetarian." I suddenly woke up from the shock. After that dream, other than a few times I accidentally ate meat, I've been a vegetarian since.

Wishing I can start over...

Sometimes I wish I can go back in time, back to 7th grade and startover. In 7th grade half way through the year, I noticed I started falling behind, before that I was a happy kid. Nothing I regret doing or happened (ok 1 thing I kinda regret)... Then in 8th grade, that year was terrible, I felt sad, depressed, but I held it in, I pretended to be happy. No one, including my parents, knew I was sad and depressed. In 9th grade,  I fell behind, all the sadness and depression poured out like a bathtub overfilled with water. I really wish I can go back, and warn myself. But wishing is wishing, time travel is impossible as of right now, even if I can go back in time, who knows what damage I might do? LOL But still, I wish I can... I tell myself everyday, God has His plans, I shouldn't feel bad, He will give me something better, He will help me through this. So far He has. He has let me have friends that can help me and talk to me. He has let my friend bring me into Church and for that I am extremely grateful. Positive thinking is the key I think. Something I saw on TV yesterday, it's on this Chinese news channel. That church always advertise there, but something that guy said. He saw this cancer patient pray every morning and thanking God that He has let him have another day of life. If it was me, I'd probably be like kill me, I can't stand it anymore... But yes, positive thinking. It's good for you. Yes, I still kinda wish I can start over, but I'm grateful that I've made it this far without going insane I guess. Praise the Lord! :)